I wasn’t sure where the music ended and he began. He was the music. The way he possessed me, controlled my moods and embodied me-just like the songs he made me listen to-was electrifying. Whatever music was on mimicked his mood or actions. I could tell what he was thinking not by his face, he never gave anything away, but by the words of the artists that surrounded us every where we went. He never told me when he was upset, sad or down; I concluded quickly that he didn’t like to talk about any of his problems. Sometimes I thought maybe it was difficult for him to find the words.
After oiling the backyard gate hinges, and climbing into my car, I rolled down the driveway on neutral not to make a sound during my escape. When I reached your apartment I felt the relief and safety that one might feel upon arriving home after a horrible day. You had turned the futon into a bed for us and patted the spot next to you for me to join. I laid there while you had your head propped up on your hand, lying on your side, you were staring at me. I always got so shy when you did this; you could make me feel so beautiful sometimes it was addicting. You told me you had a song for me to listen to, like always there was a new song on the list for me to enjoy.
"Damn girl, where did you learn to do all that?
Ay, can I tell you something? Listen
Girl the sex was crazy, better yet amazing
Don’t be sad, I ain’t going nowhere, let’s just lay and talk
Girl I know you feel it, this chemistry that we got
So don’t be shy, I ain’t going nowhere, I’m here for the night
So move closer, bring your body to mine, let me hold you right
Don’t be mad, I ain’t going nowhere, I’mma sleep here by your side
You probably think I’m shady, girl, I know, but I (ain’t gon’ fuckin’ bounce)
I’m feeling you, I wanna get to know you, so (let’s have pillow talk)
When I saw you after my show, your friends were acting like hoes
But you were different, you weren’t impressed by all my money or fancy shit
Girl your skin is so smooth, and you smell good just like some new shoes
I see you smiling, is that a sign that you feeling me too? Girl I hope so
So move closer bring your body to mine
Just like my Bathing Apes”
Pillow Talk by Kid Cudi